Night Light

Until last night it had been so long since I'd brought Friends inside my house. This little space way up high in the rafters has been a sanctuary that I've wanted to share but couldn't until now. In the dark night kitchen there was the glow of bric-a-brac candles, each candle a gift given to me by someone different, some of them never before lit. A magical sphere with brethren, new to me in this incarnation but known to me forever, a coven of thought, of breath, of love, of power. Hours rolling out to sea in a gentle tide until we three said goodnight by the light of a new dawn.

I am overwhelmed by this power, this light in me, in the World and its beings, in him. I am so, so confused by This, but that confusion and bewilderment is temporary, I know. I am wise enough to understand that only time will waft away the vaporous veils and show me why This came into my life and where in my soulheart it belongs. I am a child in a blanket. A feral dog, tip-toeing cautiously closer to the gentle hand extended. I must learn and grow forever. I must listen carefully for the Truth in This, and embrace the truth for whatever it may be.

I don't know how to love him
What to do, why he moves me
I've been changed
Yes really changed
In these past few days
When I've seen myself
I seem like someone else

Don't you think it's rather funny
I should be in this position
I'm the one who's always been
So calm, so cool, no lover's fool
Running every show
He scares me so

-- JC Superstar