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One Of The Guys
Jan. 30th, 2008 10:16 amRehearsal for Much Ado continues to be fun. I'm getting particular enjoyment from playing a male role. Moving and speaking in a manner that's vastly different from the way I usually do is really refreshing. My role as a member of The Watch is small line-wise, but we've been working up some physical comedy that's great fun. I like stomping and scratching my butt (because that's all men do, right?)
What a difference from the last time I played a male role (in 2004's Rosencrantz & Guildenstern Are Dead). I had to battle some real gender insecurity issues to handle it back then. Much as I loved being in the play, I could hardly bear to put on my grease paint beard, and only managed because a kindly castmate who I had a crush on often did it for me, making it look like his own real beard. I think part of that was that I had been feeling romantically disenfranchised for so long that I sincerely believed no one perceived me as female, but rather as a person with no gender one way or the other. Onstage in character, I would secretly be thinking to the audience "Please know that I am really a girl!"
It's easier and actually great fun now, and there's no denying that the considerable increase in affection and romantic attention I've gotten since then has had something to do with it (1000 kisses to beloved![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
beowabbit, to start with). Now I can kick it with the other "boys" and really enjoy myself. An interesting thing is that lillibet never instructed us to play the Watch as either male or female. I imagine she wanted to see which way it fell naturally, and we seem to be getting our yang on. I'm liking it.
Who's your daddy? :-)
What a difference from the last time I played a male role (in 2004's Rosencrantz & Guildenstern Are Dead). I had to battle some real gender insecurity issues to handle it back then. Much as I loved being in the play, I could hardly bear to put on my grease paint beard, and only managed because a kindly castmate who I had a crush on often did it for me, making it look like his own real beard. I think part of that was that I had been feeling romantically disenfranchised for so long that I sincerely believed no one perceived me as female, but rather as a person with no gender one way or the other. Onstage in character, I would secretly be thinking to the audience "Please know that I am really a girl!"
It's easier and actually great fun now, and there's no denying that the considerable increase in affection and romantic attention I've gotten since then has had something to do with it (1000 kisses to beloved
beowabbit, to start with). Now I can kick it with the other "boys" and really enjoy myself. An interesting thing is that lillibet never instructed us to play the Watch as either male or female. I imagine she wanted to see which way it fell naturally, and we seem to be getting our yang on. I'm liking it. Who's your daddy? :-)