Missing Planes in Dreams
Apr. 3rd, 2004 04:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
plumtreeblossomFor two years I've had a recurring dream that involves being somewhere far from home, having a flight home to Boston to catch and missing it and/or missing the plane home and not realizing it until it has left. The details and locations differ in every dream, but several constant components are always there:
1) I've been staying for several weeks in a huge house (house always different) somewhere away from the Boston area. The location has been as close as NYC and as far as Taiwan.
2) I'm staying with people I'm emotionally close to; sometimes family, sometimes friends, sometimes old friends I've long since lost touch with, or a surreal combination these. But in any case, loved ones.
3) I am critically overdue to get back home to Boston for work, responsibilities, household maintenance, etc. Whatever the holiday or getaway was, it should be over now, and I should be back home.
4) I have missed the plane flight (by a margin ranging from minutes to months), or I am about to miss it because I can't get my luggage together and force myself out of the house bubble of happiness and calm. Then there is anxiety over what responsibilities I'm neglecting back in Boston.
This motif stands in stark contrast to my waking life. In actuality, I haven't been out of the country since October of 2002 and I'm positively gnawing my fists with the extreme need to go anywhere out of the
country for a while, but I don't have the money right now.
I don't understand what this recurring dream is trying to tell me. Since December I've had variations of it 3-4 times a week. Its so frequent now that even within the dreams themselves I'll find myself thinking "Oh, I'm missing the flight home again." I'm trying to understand the pattern of these dreams, what the need to "get home" means. What is being neglected? Why is going home so seemingly impossible?
1) I've been staying for several weeks in a huge house (house always different) somewhere away from the Boston area. The location has been as close as NYC and as far as Taiwan.
2) I'm staying with people I'm emotionally close to; sometimes family, sometimes friends, sometimes old friends I've long since lost touch with, or a surreal combination these. But in any case, loved ones.
3) I am critically overdue to get back home to Boston for work, responsibilities, household maintenance, etc. Whatever the holiday or getaway was, it should be over now, and I should be back home.
4) I have missed the plane flight (by a margin ranging from minutes to months), or I am about to miss it because I can't get my luggage together and force myself out of the house bubble of happiness and calm. Then there is anxiety over what responsibilities I'm neglecting back in Boston.
This motif stands in stark contrast to my waking life. In actuality, I haven't been out of the country since October of 2002 and I'm positively gnawing my fists with the extreme need to go anywhere out of the
country for a while, but I don't have the money right now.
I don't understand what this recurring dream is trying to tell me. Since December I've had variations of it 3-4 times a week. Its so frequent now that even within the dreams themselves I'll find myself thinking "Oh, I'm missing the flight home again." I'm trying to understand the pattern of these dreams, what the need to "get home" means. What is being neglected? Why is going home so seemingly impossible?